Yay It's Monday?!

Today's blog comes with a warning. I have no clue in what direction this is headed or what is going to slosh out from my brain, flow through my fingers and end up on the page. I think it is pretty safe to say that by the end, we are likely to all be surprised!

*Monday's are normally my "like" or "not like" blogs. Today however, I think there maybe a little like, possibly a smidge of love, a whole lot of don't like, some possible wants and maybe even a hate or two. Really though, who the heck knows what I might decide to unload? Again....WARNING!

I know I have expressed vehemently in both the past and the present, how much I really don't care for Monday's. Well, this week....Monday is so unbelievably welcome, as it means this last weekend is over! Now don't get me wrong, it didn't all suck, but the insight and perspective I ended up with after the last 48 hours was literally exhausting. It all started with a friend coming over Friday night. She and I had actually not really talked in several months so we thought WOW....what a great time to catch up. Poor girl. She had no idea what she was in for when she innocently asked, "So....what's been going on?" The last seven months came pouring out and I am very sure by the time she left she was good with waiting to see me another seven months!

My weekend continued on with me spending the better part of Saturday and Sunday, doling out sage advice to 18 year olds. Well, it sounded sage coming out. Who knew 50+ years of life experience would come in so handy and be so disregarded by those barely out of the womb? Don't correct me. Those 18 years went by fast. In my book....that's barely out of the womb! Doling out advice....sage or otherwise....always proves to be time consuming, exhausting and invariably makes my me wish my mother was still around so that I could apologize to her for being a dumbass all those years ago when I too thought I was too smart for sage advice.

On a more positive note, a big part of Davids back yard project was completed on Saturday. We now have a completed pool and deck. We capped the completion of the project off with a tween pool party that I had promised to a young girl who had spent part of her summer helping with the project. We had the pool, the fire pit and we tried the projector out for the first time. There were a couple of bugs and we learned that old pool liner puts off toxic fumes if you try to burn it in the fire pit. All in all though, the party went well.

Yesterday, when I wasn't doling out advice, I was laying on the couch sneezing, hacking, aching and feeling like crap. Not sure whether it was too much advice, too much toxic fire pit or just too much perspective on my life. Whatever the case though, Sunday wasn't one of my better days. I found myself about 3 o'clockish, longing for Monday. That's when I knew that this particular weekend had worn out its welcome and it was definitely time to move on.

So today it's Monday. Here is where all that stuff I warned you about in paragraph two* comes in. Perhaps it is a combination of what came to me this weekend, this summer and quite possibly even as far back as Dec. 31, 2013. Well....here goes nothing......

I hate doing it all alone! I didn't sign on for this.
It is no fun being a half century old and feeling like the only thing you have going for you is advice that no one else appreciates and won't.......until they too are a half century old.
I like having goals. They direct me and sometimes even motivate me.
I hate having goals because when life steps in and my goals become non-existent...I fail. I am not a fan of failing.
I like the show Extreme Weight Loss. I like watching people make goals and keep them.
I really like a new drink I discovered.....Apple Jacks. Jack Daniels and apple juice. Yummy....and no, I am not drinking one as I am typing this.
I don't like that my car tags are due in three days and I can't afford to get them.
I don't like getting tickets because I don't have my car tags.
I like the Disney show Good Luck Charlie. It makes me laugh and sometimes I need a good laugh and I am not above watching the Disney Channel to get it.
I don't like that I will be starting August financially short and overdrawn. As overrated as bill paying is, it is still a requirement to live.
I love that Disney brought back Corey and Topanga for Girl Meets World. Yes, there maybe a Disney theme developing here.
I like time by the pool not thinking.
I like doing dishes by hand and listening to music because once again....there is no thinking.
I don't like bedtime, because that's apparently when I do all of my thinking.
I love my blogs. They keep me sane.
I don't like to always have to be the one to make things "okay" for everyone else. It simply is beyond my skill set.
I hate doing it all alone! 
I want someone to step in and make everything alright for me for once. Is that really asking so much?
I love my family....immediate, extended, blood and framily and there is nothing I wouldn't do for any of them. I just wish some of them felt the same.
I want David to walk and talk and have an amazing life.
I hate that I can't give him more.
I hate being judged as a daughter, sister, mother or person. Walk in my shoes and then we'll talk.
I don't want to be rich, but caught up would be terrific.
I am thankful for all who have been so kind to David over the years. I hope someday to pay it forward.
I hate that my mom is no longer here and that I am without her sage advice. 
I hate having bills and no money.
I hate not having a job.
I hate that no one has discovered my amazing writing skills and hired me on the spot!
I hate that I am not good at more.
I love home grown tomatoes and homemade bread.
I miss my husband.
I miss our house.
I miss our family back then.
I miss sharing it all.
I hate doing it all alone! 
I hate always being the strong one.....when I am anything but strong.
I hate to cry.
I like to laugh.
I like to cook.
I like to read.
I love to dance like nobody's watching.....even if they are.
I love to sing like I can....even though I can't.
I love to hear Z sing. He actually can!
I love to hear David laugh.
I love sitting around the fire with my friends and forgetting about advice, money or the fact that not all those I love are with me.
I love knowing that each time I fall, I get up stronger.
I love that I am smart, determined and that my words can be both gentle and powerful and sometimes both at the same time.
I hate doing it all alone!
I love having the faith to know that there is a plan bigger than mine, better than mine and that things will eventually all work out.....even if I'm doing it....all alone!

So there you have it. Yay.....it's Monday?! And apparently, I am feeling a bit alone!

I Just Hate Mondays

Look out! It's Monday and by preconceived notion and Monday's flawless track record, I have no great hope that today will be anything less than a......Monday. Because of this, I have decided to use this day to it's fullest and unload my current dislikes of and in the world. So suit up, put on your protective gear and get ready 'cause here it comes.

I don't like getting older. Don't get me wrong, I love living, I just don't like gray hair, bad vision, sags, bags and wrinkles. It takes away from my mental illusion of being young.

I don't like Reality TV! It sucks me in, dumbs me down and gives me nightmares about the Jersey Shore as well as makes me question a world where Honey Boo Boo could be queen.

I don't like lazy baggers at a full service grocery store. Don't think you're just going to get by with bagging my twenty bags of groceries. Oh no....you are taking them to my car and unloading them too. And by the way...yes, me walking away without my basket does mean you are suppose to follow me to the car. If I wanted to load my own groceries I would have gone to Walmart!

I hate mosquito's, ticks and wasps as all are attracted to me and none in a good way. If only men were so easily attracted. 

I am not a fan of doctors offices, ER's or hospitals and yet I have earned enough frequent flier miles at each that I should be able to travel to the Mayo Clinic with first class travel and deluxe accommodations several times over.

I can't stand rude kids who haven't been taught better and rude adults who certainly should know better. Yes...I do see the pattern. 

I despise the term Politically Correct and every time I hear it I want to say "Hey 1990 called and they want their stupid term back." Really though....they don't! 

I don't like my dryer as I spend way too much time looking for missing socks and underwear. Yes, my dryer's appetite for destruction seems to carry over to underwear too and someday I will go to Dryerland and find them all!

I hate hot cars, cold floors and dripping faucets.

I am not a fan of straight tequila, light beer or wine of any kind.

I despise seizures, Lupus and cancer and would do just about anything to eradicate them all.

I hate loss, loneliness and the urge to vacation in Pityland.....when one or both occur.

I don't like hot Spaghetti O's, cold soup or any cheese that smells like it has been stuck in my shoe for a week.

I can't stand election years, political parties or any commercial that ends with, "I am ________ and I approve this message." 

Mostly though.....I just hate Monday's. 

Thanking Soldiers.....and Welcome to Monday

I would like to begin today's blog by thanking our military. They do so much and honestly....get so little in return for keeping us safe and making sure that our freedom stays in tact. Last night....it was proclaimed loud and clear that Osama Bin Laden had been killed and that his body was in American hands. Much of the media talk was about credit. Was it the Bush Administration who deserved the credit or the Obama Administration? Possibly it was a joint effort? Wrong on all accounts. Neither administration should take the credit. The credit belongs soley to our military. If not for them.... Bin Laden would still be at large.

Although many throughout the world are rejoicing that this terrorist of mass proportions is dead, I have to wonder what this means. Is the world suddenly a safer place with his demise or are there many others out there just waiting to take his place and come after us with a vengeance? Granted...we cannot fear retaliation when doing what is right....but even being right has it's pitfalls and I do fear that we have not heard the last from Al qaeda. I hope with all my heart that our current administration pulls national security in tightly and keeps their eyes and ears open for some time to come. Perhaps though....maybe this is the beginning of the end for this particular terrorist regime. Maybe the infrastructure will start to crumble with the taking of this leader. This nation can only hope. All I know for sure is....he is dead and we have the brave men and women of our military to thank. Thank you one and all!

And now....on to our regularly scheduled Monday.   
 

Welcome to a new week! And so it begins! I was right Friday when I said I thought the weekend would fly by. It did....in record time. I started cleaning Friday night. I cleaned all day Saturday (at least the part that I wasn't out running) and from the time I got home from church Sunday (after blogging of course), until almost bedtime last night. I am not doing the kiss and promise type cleaning either....I am doing the full on move every piece of furniture, take down every curtain kind. I will NOT leave for MO or any place else and know that I am coming home to a dirty house. I wouldn't enjoy one second of my trip knowing that dust bunnies would be greeting me on my arrival home.

I think I might have mentioned a time or two about how much I hate to clean....and the only thing I hate worse is a dirty house. Crazy....right? A dirty house just drives me to the brink of insanity....causing me in turn....to drive everyone else there. I have been trying to justify hiring someone to come in and clean for me, but I just haven't quite made it there yet. I have several that have said they would do it, but the financial justification hasn't quite hit my complete and total frustration yet. I am sure however....that soon....very soon, the two will meet head on.

Aside from cleaning this weekend, there were other things going on. Z had his Esprit tryouts Friday night and he will know tonight whether he made it or not. Saturday he had state choir competition where they came out with a 1 (the highest score you can get). Z was so excited. Tonight is Catapalooza. It is the high school spring concert. Z has a special act where he does a solo. He is doing The Mortician's Daughter by Black Veil Brides. It is actually a beautiful song and he is being backed up by two really talented kids. I plan on recording it and if my camera skills are good enough...I might just share. Of course....technology and I are seldom friends....so we will have to see what happens. Oh.... and did I mention......I am over half way to being a REAL blogger. LOL I have over 5000 blog views. Take that Miss Blog Snob! Now if I can just get to 1000 postings! snicker

We are now officially in the last month of school. WOW! It seems like school just started and then we jumped to Christmas.....now it is May! If I thought time zoomed by up until now....I best be holding onto my hat because things are really taking off from here. Between the tons of cheesecakes I am doing (graduation, communion and confirmation....with a bridal shower thrown in for good measure), we also have a couple of graduations to go to, finals, the spring play, David's IEP, and getting this trip planned for MO. Throw into all of this finishing up cleaning my house, getting my yard in shape....oh.....and work and I may just have to cut out sleeping until June. I am thinking that is the only way to fit it all into the limited time I have. It makes me tired just thinking about it! Sigh!

Today is suppose to be cloudy and chilly. Maybe not as bad as yesterday....but still not very springy. I know I should quit weather complaining.....because before long it is going to be a 100 degrees with 80% humidity and that isn't going to make me happy either. I am just tired of the drearies. And when we don't have the drearies....then we have 60 mph winds which continue to threaten my fence, my potted plants and all the branches in my already precariously old trees. Of course....this is typical KS weather and being that I have lived in KS the better part of my life.....I probably should be pretty familiar with the hit and miss weather patterns of the state. Still....a few high 70 degree days with only a light breeze and abundant sunshine would be glorious and a great boost to my sagging emotional status. Ahhhh well!

It didn't take much thought when it came to today's video. Number one.....I am a huge Trace Adkins fan....and let's just say he isn't too bad to look at either. I guess you know you have made it as a star when you get to star in a video with the Muppets. This video makes me laugh every time I see it. So have a wonderful Monday as I leave you with Trace Adkins and Brown Chicken Brown Cow!